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07:34pm 09/03/2005
  I am definately the asshole of the day, and now I need to set things straight with most of the team and make it up to Gar. Fuck, but clay and still go to hell.  
     
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05:28pm 22/02/2005
  Sunday night I saw most of Sideways, and then went to eat at Steak n' Shake. Then had a walk back at my house. Hadn't done it in awhile, and I hope to do it more often. yeah Friday went to Koontz's then to denny's for pancakes and yeah thats basically my weekend with lacrosse thrown in there somewhere  
     
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03:42pm 03/01/2005
  I have been neglecting this lately, not even keeping up with other's journals. But it won't be hard to get back into it again. yeah  
     
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05:24pm 28/11/2004
  Sideburns yay or nay?  
     
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11:49pm 23/11/2004
 

GET DOWN

The World is Gonna END

 

it died and left us there

 
     
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03:38pm 23/11/2004
  this is still true today, well the messy part, but also its just plain hilairious.

If any of you have been inside the room that is josh's pile of shit you will understand

2. Tell me something about yourself that I don't know. When I was little and friends with your sister, we would go in your room all the time and laugh at how messy it was.

god that made my day
 
     
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09:57am 23/11/2004
  anyone else on? I am in wilken and bored out of my fucking mind!  
     
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some of these are awesome so fill it out   
12:13am 23/11/2004
  1. Tell me something obvious about yourself.
2. Tell me something about yourself that I don't know.
3. What is your biggest fear?
4. Do you normally take the safe route or the shortcut?
5. What is the one thing you want the most that you can't buy with money?
6. What is your most treasured possession?
7. What is the one thing you hate most about yourself that you do the most often?
8. Tell me something about you sexually that I don't know.
9. Tell me something about you sexually that everybody knows.
10. What is your favorite lie to tell?
11. Name something you have done once that you can't wait to do again.
12. Are you the jealous type?
13. What is the 1 person, place or thing that you can never say no to?
14. What is the nicest thing someone has ever done for you?
15. If you could do something crazy right now, what would it be?
16. When was the last time you cried?
17. When was the last time you felt so good that nothing else mattered?
18. Do you feel comfortable in public with no shirt on?
19. Name something embarrassing you did while drunk.
20. If you post this in your journal, do you want me to answer:
 
     
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06:52pm 22/11/2004
  Fit the Second: A Cleaner Spoon
[Scene 1: Isaac Newton, floating in Blackness, reading from a scroll in a false English Accent]
Newton: Newton's first law of dynamics: An object in motion tends to stay in motion unless acted upon by external forces.
(Fade out)
[Scene 2: Vapid and Clyde are standing in a nursery. There is a cradle. There may be a portrait on the posterior wall, which is painted in friendly pastels. Vapid is evil, Clyde just looks like a Regular Mom. Clyde tickles the baby as Vapid stands ominously nearby. After a few seconds, lights dim on everyone but Vapid, who steps forward to address the audience. These two pronounce (special) Capitalized Words in some distinctive way. The whole conversation has a seamy wrongness to it]

Vapid: I am an evil demoness. Here is one of my minions, Clyde, and here is her child.
(Vapid walks back to Clyde and son, lighting returns to normal)
Clyde: What say you, O High Vapid?
Vapid: Have I mentioned, Bishop Clyde, that in order to enter the Queendom of Vapid, you must train your offspring in the teachings of the Temple of Vapid?
Clyde: It goes without saying, Lord Vapid.
(Bean wanders by in the background, surveying the scene casually)
(fade out)
[Scene 3: Clyde is watching Squeezy (her son, who is now maybe 6 years old) ride a bicycle with training wheels on a Sunny Autumn day. Everything is very normal looking except for the fact that it is sickeningly family-like and happy, and also except for Vapid who is standing nearby dismally. Bean is sitting on a bench and reading a newspaper]
Squeezy: Mommy, look, I'm riding it by myself!
Clyde: That's wonderful, Squeezy!
Squeezy: Thank Vapid for bicycles! Thank Vapid for Life Itself!
(At this point Vapid approaches the two. The lights become evil and demonic and maybe there is a fire lighting effect around them. Vapid stands with her hand raised above the two, facing away, like "kiss my hand, mortals")
Squeezy (obviously not understanding many of the words he is using): Oh High Lord Vapid, we Pay Homage To You and Worship You For All You Have Brought Us.
Clyde: May your Vapidness Pervade The Entire Universe.
(Squeezy kneels in some sort of bow that's nondenominational as we know it; apparently endemic to Vapidism)
Squeezy: Oh Vapid, She Who Hast Created the World.
(Clyde joins in here and they say the prayer together. The lights smoothly get ultraviolet and the fire effect becomes more pronounced)
Squeezy & Clyde: Your Evilness is Like No Other. Thou Hast Always Wrought Truth, Thou Hast Permeated Our Existence With Dark, May We Hope To Enter The Queendom Of Vapid Through Our Tribute To Your Temple.
(Vapid retains her pose, and after a while, whispers):
Vapid (whispering): You forgot the last line.
Squeezy & Clyde (hastily, for they are worried that Vapid is angry with them): Sic Locutus.
(Rapidly the lights return to normal. Squeezy is suddenly full-grown)
(Bean stands from the bench and folds the newspaper. He sets it on the bench and approaches the two; Vapid has disappeared in the interim. During this scene, Clyde detaches herself from Squeezy, and allows him to defend his faith on his own)
Bean: What is this?
Clyde: My son and I were praying to the Almighty Vapid.
Bean: Why?
Squeezy: We mean to enter the Queendom of Vapid through our reverence for Her Highness.
Bean: What is that?
Clyde (apparently quoting Scripture): The Queendom of Vapid is the most Evil Place. On the Ethereal Plane, it Transcends the Worldly Light and Achieves Total Darkness, a place where Evil Pervades All.
Bean: Evil? Why would you want to be evil?
Squeezy (confused): What do you mean, why? Because evil is good. It is good to be evil.
Bean (confused, upset): What? You do know what `evil' means, right?
Squeezy: Yeah. It means... you know, Evil.
Bean: Evil is the exact opposite of Good!
Squeezy: No it isn't.
Bean (angry, begins to say): Yes it is!
(But is cut off by FORCE entering, who finishes his sentence, "yes it...")
Force: Isn't. It is not.
Bean: Who are you??
Force: I am Force. Do not assume that Squeezy has the same definition of `evil' as you, but investigate further, this is good.
Bean: How can I, he says that Evil means (imitates Squeezy's voice) "you know, Evil".
Force: Then ask him what he does to exemplify his Evilness.
Bean: What do you do that makes you Evil?
Squeezy: Well, I pray to Vapid, and I read the Scriptures, and I go to the Temple.
(Force disappears again.)
Bean: That's it?
Squeezy: I... yes, that's it I suppose.
Bean: No human sacrifices or drinking blood or anything?
Squeezy: No! No, of course not!
Bean: Oh... Hmm... so why exactly do you want to be Evil again? I mean, Evil with this particular Demoness?
Squeezy: Her Highness Vapid is the Demoness! No other Demoness could have created the Universe, Created the Human Race In Her Evil Image, be Lord Of All Creation, Perform the Thirty-Seven Evil Miracles -
Bean: What Miracles? How do you know she did all this stuff?
Squeezy: It is written in the Scriptures! (conveniently produces a copy from his back pocket and hands it to Bean)
Bean (takes the book, flips through it): These pages are all blank!
Squeezy: Ah, only Those With True Faith can read the Scriptures.
Bean: This is preposterous!
Squeezy: It is so. (nods slowly)
Bean (flips through the book to a random page in the center, and shows it to Squeezy): What does this page say, right here?
Squeezy (takes a moment): "... And Lo, She Spake Upon Her Subjects, `Thou Shalt Carry Thy Evilness To Far Away Lands, And Thou Shalt Imbue them with The Teachings of The Temple Of Vapid, And Thou-..."
Bean (furious, turns around and rips a page out of the book where Squeezy can't see. He turns back around and shows the page to Squeezy): What does this one say, huh?
Squeezy (a little bit upset that Bean tore up his Evil Book, but still polite and restrained): I don't know.
(Bean is about to go, "A HA!")
Squeezy: The magic ink must have leaked out when you ripped it.
(Bean is speechless. He gets red in the face, and is about to shout, but calms down.)
Bean: Well, okay, what happens to a non-believer like me? Where do I go instead of the Queendom Of Vapid?
Squeezy: You go to heaven.
Bean: Heaven! Well, sounds pretty good to me.
Squeezy: No, no, heaven is an awful place.
(Bean "keeps a stiff upper lip" and nods slowly to himself)
Squeezy: It's filled with all sorts of hideous angels and light, and there is No Evil there.
Bean: It doesn't sound so bad to me.
Squeezy (thoughtfully): You would benefit from the Teachings of Vapid.
(Suddenly VAPID, somewhat out-of-character, runs onto the scene.)
Vapid (urgently): Quick, everyone, let's jump off a bridge!
Squeezy, Clyde: Okay!
(SQUEEZY, VAPID, and CLYDE all jump off the front of the stage. Squeezy and Clyde scream on the way down; there may be a noticeable absence of screaming by Vapid).
Bean (standing alone, a little in shock): Well, I guess this is heaven.
(Very shortly, Vapid climbs up and hoists herself up the front of the stage. As soon as she is up, she pulls off her face and clothes and reveals herself to be Force. It is unclear if Force was always Vapid or if he was only impersonating her for the Jump-off-the-bridge scene)
Force: Quick, let's go get a beer.
Bean: Okay.
(They begin to walk offstage, fade to black)

Fit The Third: Missile Command Arrives
[Scene 1: Isaac Newton, floating in Blackness, reading from a scroll in a false English Accent]
Newton: Newton's second law of dynamics: When acted upon by an external force, an object accelerates inversely proportional to its mass in the direction of the force.
(Fade out)
[Scene 2: A smallish office on a Pretty High floor. Just a desk (with a porcelain flowerpot atop it, and flowers) and a window are there, as well as a large lever with a red knob on the end. Smock is sitting at his desk in a superhero costume, shaking a shoebox violently and laughing sort-of disturbingly evilly (and I mean actually evilly, not like Squeezy-brand EvilTM) The box has a miniature Squeezy and Bean and Vapid et al in it, and they are screaming very faintly. Mindy, a young girl, walks melancholically to Smock's desk. She is carrying a nondescript Russian Nesting Doll (one of those dolls that split in half and have another doll inside which also splits in half, etc.)]

Mindy (holds up her doll, which is about six inches tall): Mister, have you seen my Russian Nesting doll?
Smock (suddenly sets the box down, adopting his super-hero voice and posture): Oh, yes, very pretty.
Mindy: No, mister, I mean. have you seen the next one? The bigger doll one that I put this one into.
Smock: No, I'm afraid I haven't.
(Mindy leaves, only slightly more melancholy than she arrived)
(Smock stands and walks to the window. He stands there, looking out over the city, with his hands on his hips in a superhero pose)
Smock (to himself, but still with a Superhero voice): I, Smock, must protect my city from EvilTM.
(There doesn't seem to be much evil going on outside the window, so he turns around and begins to walk back to his desk. As soon as he does, the window shatters with a spray of glass and a loud thump. When he recovers from ducking he spots a brick with a note tied to it on the ground; it was thrown through the window by some miscreant)
Smock: What's this? (He picks up the brick and unties the note, reads from it) "Pull the big lever."
Smock (furrowing his brow and walking towards the lever): Huh. I've always wondered what this does.
(He pulls the lever, and the walls of the office building lift up to reveal a slightly larger office. This one is exactly the same; another window and another lever (his desk remains). There is also a duck, named "A")
Smock (a little surprised): Uh.
A (ominously, for a duck): I am Capital A, I control this room.
Smock (it's just a duck; he stands tall and regains his booming voice): I'm sorry, but I am Smock, and I am defender of this city. I uphold Law and Order.
A (very ominously): *I* control this room.
Smock: I'm going to have to ask you to leave, perhaps find some other city to-
(Smock is interrupted by his body being transformed into a Banana)
Smock (VERY surprised): Um.
A: I told you so.
Smock: Are you like, God, or something?
A: You could say that. I know everything, I am all powerful. I can do anything I want.
Smock: I never believed in God.
A: Believe it, kid.
Smock: Okay, okay, I believe. Will you change my body back, please?
A: No. Why should I? You are but insignificant debris.
Smock: But... surely you can spare a moment.
A: Nope. You could never spare a moment for me.
(Smock seems depressed. He sulks for a very short time, and then the new window shatters from a brick being thrown through it. Smock waddles over and looks down at the note)
Smock (to A): It's for you.
A (walks over and reads the note): It says, "Pull the big lever."
(A walks towards the lever)
A: I've always wondered what this does.
(A pulls the lever, and the walls lift up to reveal another larger room as before; with new lever and window, and a new duck, named "B")
B (ominously): I am Capital B, I am the master of this realm.
Smock: You too!
A (angrily): *I* am master of this realm!
B: No, I am.
(Smock's body is transformed back to normal. A becomes very upset and changes Smock back into a Banana. B frowns calmly and changes Smock back to normal and A into a teddy bear)
Smock (in awe): Thanks, man. So, you're Really God, then?
B: Yes.
Smock: Who is this `A' character, then?
B: He is god of your room, perhaps, but not god of Everything -- like myself.
Smock (thinking, for he is brighter than it may seem): Hmm, let me ask you a question: "Do you believe in God?"
B (insulted): No, of course not! Why, that's the stupidest --
(B is interrupted by his window shattering and a brick flying through it)
Smock: I think that's for you.
(B, still insulted, muttering "why I NEVER!" etc., goes and picks up the brick and reads it)
B: It says, "Pull the big lever."
(B pulls the lever. The walls lift up, another window, another lever, another Duck, named "C")
C: You don't believe in me, eh?
(C points a menacing finger at B and he spontaneously explodes)
Smock: I suppose you're the Real God, then?
C: Yes, of course. I am Capital C, I control this realm.
Smock: With a name like `C', wouldn't you think that there are at least 23 more of you?
C: I don't understand what you mean. How can there be anything more powerful than me? I am God. More power than I possess is outside my comprehension.
(His window is smashed by a brick, which he reads, and goes to pull the lever. At this point, things get very hectic; walls are raising and windows are smashed and levers are pulled and Gods are Blown Up and Turned Into All Manner Of Things. All of this happens within the course of a minute and is rather Spectacular. Finally, a Very Large Duck appears, his name is `Z', and the commotion (most of it, except for the ex-God bunny rabbits hopping around and Charred Ashes smoldering quietly) settles down)
Z (most ominously of all): I am Capital Z, I am The End.
Smock (stumbling around; his limbs have been changed into some variety of produce): That's it, you're really the last one? The God of Everything?
Z: That's it.
Smock: Surely you must believe there is more?
Z: No, I'm it.
(Mindy wanders up to Z. She was really there all during the commotion, asking all of the quasi-Gods if they had seen her Russian Nesting Doll, but she never got the spotlight)
Mindy: Mister, have you seen my Russian Nesting Doll?
Z: Yes, Mindy, I have it right here.
(He Produces a very large doll -- which looks just like the ones she already has -- and hands it to her. Mindy pieces it together and is very happy)
Mindy: It's finally done! Thank you! (She runs off gleefully)
(Smock glances at the window impatiently, waiting for it to smash open. An uncomfortable bit goes by, Smock walks over to the window and glances out of it; he shades his eyes with his hand to peer because he apparently can't see anything. He waits some more, nothing happens. The set is basically silent)
Smock (confused): That's really it?
Z: That's it.
Smock: Oh.
(Fade to black. As it fades out, we hear glass breaking as if Z's window is being smashed by a brick. Suddenly, the lights fade in to see that Smock has accidentally dropped the flower vase from his desk onto the floor. He says, "Sorry, that's me," and the scene fades back out)


Fit the Fourth: What We Thought
[Scene 1: Isaac Newton is being thrust from offstage into the floating blackness. He is speaking in his standard (not false-English) accent in low tones to someone offstage, saying things like, "I don't have any more laws!" and "I can't!"]

Newton (clears throat, embarrassed, uses false English Accent again): Um, I'm terribly sorry but I only prepared three laws for this. I thought this play was only three fits.
Force (who silently appeared very mysteriously next to Newton): It is. (shoots Newton in the head)
(Fade to black)
END!
 
     
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09:56pm 21/11/2004
 
mood: contemplative
None of my clothes fit anymore
 
     
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05:41pm 19/11/2004
  Anyone free tonight? I need out of the house.

201-6795
 
     
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The Hiatus is back off, again...   
09:41pm 15/11/2004
 
mood: twitchy
Well tonight I just broke down after scouts.
No one was in my house so I got naked, and watched porn.
Now for those of you that know me you would say that thats a very common occurence, but some of you know that I had quit jerking off over a month and a half ago. Thats right my penis hadn't been ejaculated in 45 fucking days. I feel dirty, yet somehow relieved.

No one would streak with me at scouts tonight


No more jerking off again, gonna see how long I last this time.
 
     
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10:38pm 13/11/2004
  The Timmy Foundation is non profit organization started by Dr. Dietzen, or Dr. Chuck to those who have met him. It was started here in Indiana with local doctors at St. Vincent and they travel around the world to improve healthcare worldwide. If you have nothing to do this summer and would like to make a small difference in the world, and to also visit a country you normally never would have thought about go to the link below and find out.

"We weren't all born to be doctors and healers, but we were all born to be healers." -Dr. Chuck





Garrett has gone to Ecuador twice and said it was a life altering experience. He has seen things you wouldn't in your wildest dreams would believe thats how people live. Some live in the side of hills in holes, these would include the working class with jobs. Ecuador has few very rich, but many very poor. It is a 3rd world nation and one of the countries you can go help through the Timmy Foundation.

You don't even have to go on a trip to get involved, they have small fund raisers every now and then for different medical causes. I went to one last month that was fake wrestling and handicapped kids pretending beating up Dr. Chuck. Functions are usually just around indy so you wouldn't have to travel far.
 
     
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12:14pm 13/11/2004
 
mood: there
Going to Bloomington later today, to see my big sister. As soon as david finds his license she said we can crash at her place, so does anyone want to come along sometime with us to bloomington?

Anyways I have nothing to do tomorrow if someone would like to make plans that would be splendid

Monica call me
 
     
1 told truth|critisim here
 
   
12:34am 12/11/2004
  I miss that sweet taste, you killed it.  
     
critisim here
 
We weren't all born to be doctors and nurses, but we were all born to be healers   
10:02pm 10/11/2004
  Went to panera tonight with sara and alex. And then back to garrett's to finish that journalism thing, that I still haven't started. thats about it


I MISS MY MONICA

Matt I can't wait until you come
 
     
1 told truth|critisim here
 
Jack fucked Lady Lax and I popped out   
10:10pm 08/11/2004
 
mood: indescribable
Ah the days of Nerf Herder and Coach Welch, good times. I remember belting out Jenna Bush Army with garrett, jack, nick, and dave. That Spring nothing could ever beat that probably, the weather was perfect, and the atmosphere was the friendliest you could ask for. Synchronized myself with my best friend and one of the great guys I have ever met, when one failed the other knew where to be. Alex got anything that happened to get by the guys when we were allowing the learning. It was okay to be immature and crazy, AND ME. Epitome of youthful fun, the talk of BUILDING A BOAT OUT OF PUDDING CUPS never got old. Lacrosse was Lacrosse, there was no real push to be the best just self enjoyment, no titles to be won and no recognition outside the guys. I had this real bitching jacket with all my pins on the collar, and I thought it was teh coolest thing around. Thats right its name was Jackie teh Jacket, named after jack. I have this thing where I name alot of my shit for no reason. Eleanore hadn't come into play yet, but it would only be about 8 months until it rocked my world. I will totally post pictures sometime of Eleanore and Dorris, if someone shows me how to load them from my camera.
 
     
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11:50am 06/11/2004
  You fucked his life up you asshole  
     
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07:57pm 05/11/2004
  someone call, I'll be up for awhile  
     
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08:39pm 04/11/2004
  So far this week...

1.Became a National Party Member of the Libertarian Party
2.Met the National Party Chairman
3.Became a LIFE SCOUT BITCHES
4.Dressed in Randy's clothes for a project
5.Had my pants drop to my ankles in school
6.I feel fucking amazing
7.Hauptmann DINED AND DASHED
8.Worked the polls

Mark Rutherford is one of the most down to earth and helpful people I have met. He is going to help get me and garrett into WABASH bitches


Tonight was great, 15 minutes of awkward one word answers and good old remember when you did this hicks? stories
 
     
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